i stand before a God that is not far from me, difficult to comprehend in all essence, but have graciously chosen to reveal himself through His word. what better way to know and experience him through the reading of his precious word.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,
declares the LORD.
As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
Isaiah 55:8-10

what better way.

it's one of those days that i have the absolute free will to throw a tantrum, walk away and ignore. (the old abigail will do that, trust me.) okay, but i have chosen not to and grit my teeth, pressing on. and this has taught me patience. to wait, just wait. painfully of course. and while waiting, read. to be more sure of what i believe in, and read somemore. to indulge and be happy with my reading. and most importantly spend time, praying. to pray until words seem so inadequate to express what my heart wants to say.

i have no more words left to say, suddenly.

& thanks stephy and lydia for being reassuring. for comforting-- despite steph's weird comments about my body language! (which i still dont get.) but well, thank you, pretty much for saying things that will not allow my emotions to overwhelm me and strangle me in the process. for reaffirming.

oh-kay. need to brave the winds now.