the opportunity to love others comes at the most unexpected moments. not moments when you are especially looking out on how you could love someone. the moment comes and snatches you away like a thief in the night. it presents itself at the moment when you are least likely to show love, and forces you to make a decision immediately. one wrong move and you miss that precious opportunity that God gave you.
i missed mine, tonight.
& was shocked at how ugly my thoughts can ever be. it is to curb jealousy with love. it is so difficult, and i ask myself time and time again: "so, why cant you just get it right." and the solution is not: just walk away. it is not.
i struggle,
but im not giving up.
let me try again, please?